Thursday, August 31, 2006

weird habits

i bet everyone has weird habits...it's the matter of how weird your habits are...weird enough to shock other ppl...wahahaz...i myself sure have many weird habits that make ppl shudder or salute me...i'm not getting cocky lahz...becos weird habits do not mean good habits...it's experimenting...u noe...i'm juz a normal teen to find my own ways of living in my own style... :P

*DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS OF VANESSA ARE GOING TO BE REVEALED IN THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPHS....gonna break the rule and tell ya my weird habits (so can understand me better mahz! i'm also throwing away my image! ahhhh!)...hehe...read at ur own risk ( ok lahz...it's not tat scary!)

i TALK TO MYSELF and to my televsion....weird enough? some ppl cnt accept this weird habit of mine...thinking tat i'm crazy in the head...but i do find it perfectly normal( at least for me)...it seems tat i have a conscious self and sub-conscious self...tat's why i talk to myself...sometimes i look at the mirror and talk or talk to the air but i'm listening at the same time....it's like my sub-conscious talking to my conscious and vice versa and it can even be enjoyable and beneficial...(never bluff u!) i also realise that i normally talk to myself due to either sorting out my thoughts and views or juz simply lonely...wanting a listening ear...i'll feel much better after talking to myself sometimes...because only we understand ourselves best....hahaz...

i talk to the television probably i'm too engrossed in the story plots of dramas...i wld get agitated and hurl vulgarities at certain characters, sympathise the victims, drowned in the romance and etc....it's not weird in the sense tat u'll feel like u are part of the story....u'll be able to appreciate the drama better...

i SING EVERYWHERE....alright...maybe it's normal...cos ppl who like to sing will sing all the time...but the venues where i sing are the highlights for laughter....hahahaz....my 'fav' singing spots are not kbox or even on stage....but in my bathroom, on my way home, cars, buses and bus stops...u noe...sometimes...my mouth juz went out of control...and i'll mumble during bus trips...then i can see ppl staring at me...thinking 'why is tat girl's mouth moving?'...i tried to spot ppl who do the same thing as me in the buses...but to no avail...ppl who listen to their mp3 dun even sing along...but i am singing without the music....luckily...my volume is juz loud enough for myself to hear...

there are surely ppl who sing in their bathrooms...and i'm definitely one of them...i always dream to be a singing sensation in my own world of cos...so i treat my bathroom as my stage...singing loudly and confidently...hahaz...beaming when i managed to hit the high notes...but i was often teased by my parents and brother...cos i juz sang too loudly...they think i'm dying to be a pop idol which is not reallly true...there was once tat even my neighbour's maid heard me singing...and went to ask my mother abt it...soooo embarrassing lahz...

i PEEL MY NAILS sometimes.....let me remind u tat i dun bite my nails but peel it...it's much cleaner in the sense...my frens noe that i dun keep long nails...cos i always got the urge to remove the 'white part' of the nails...alright i'm weird and so not feminine...but long nails are really hard to maintain (even my hair is short too...ya i'm lazy!) ...and i cnt resist nail cutters....i'll always grab it to cut my finger and toe nails...let me warn u...my nails are really super short...hahahaz....

it shld be enough for the day...bombarding u all with my weird habits...i sure have more...but keep u all in suspense first...( or u cnt take it anymore already? hehe)

Teachers' Day celebration in ny is not as bad as i thought actually...there were sure some boring moments...but i was impressed by the teachers' performances...i like the teachers' band, dress up competition, duet and drummings...the 'picnic' in the canteen with my class was also good...cos got food! Glad tat my classmates like the jelly i made...hahaz...it's juz a pity tat i didnt went back to cchms & yps...not free and no time...sob...

had official last tutorial sessions yesterday...feel kinda sad and lost as jc life is soon coming to an end....it's like 2 yrs passed so quickly that u dun even have the time to stop and recall those fine memories...i sure miss those fun lessons i had with my tutors and fellow classmates...probably i wont miss the tests and exams part...hehez...haiz...now it's the start of the holiday...indication to bury our heads in revision and adjust to studying mode...yikes...tat's even more scary! :P

tat's it at 4:44 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006

the .f.a.t. issue

exams and tests are really the culprits of my weight gain...i tend to eat a lot when i'm tired or stressed up or for some other reason...worse still...this period of time is dangerous in the sense tat u juz eat sleep study....my appetite has grown bigger and due to lack of exercise...no wonder i have bulging tummy, hidden fats...it took me months to lose some weight...now i've gained tat back...wat's mine is really mine...haiz...

ironically...i have been living in a fat shell for almost 18 yrs...so being fat is not a new thing anymore...and i dun really care also...i'm even proud of myself being in the trim and fit programme for consecutive years since pri sch till now...however...come to think abt it...it's not easy being a fat gal...it's really a lifetime experience tat not all gals can undergo (or maybe they dun even want to...)... in a fat gal's perspective...we can understand more abt human nature...the pretty and the ugly....

as i grown older...i do detest the way i look sometimes...maybe cos we are more aware abt good appearance...hoping to fit in with the swans and be recognised, appreciated and different in a pleasant way...if not...we have to largely depend on our star quality personalities...so most fat gals like me can actually be quite sociable...hehez...we often get targeted for harmless jokes or sarcasm...it does hurts in the beginning (cos we are a sensitive bunch)...but we get so used to it tat we dun even bother...this is when we actually be respected by others...wahaha

the love thing is tough for fat gals...ppl who are obessed with fat are surely limited...furthermore...guys are going for bony curvy gals now...so i often wish i was born in the dynasty where chubby gals like yang gui fei can reign as one of the beautys...but it is stupid thought as being a confident individual...i do like myself the way i am...juz tat i have mix feelings abt myself...i am soooo weird!

anyway...at this pt of time...i rather forsake beauty for brains...hahaz...but in future...i will try to do something different to myself...since i've been a fat gal for so many yrs...time to change into another comfortable shell...maybe i being paranoid...let my mouth and stomach do what she wans...let my fats stay with me first...i'll deal with them soon too... :)

korean drama 'my lovely samsoon' is AWESOME...i like the main characters and the plot....u see...it's a fat and talented woman trying to find love (she's sooo cool & funny!)....and the guy is like sooo handsome...hahaz...it is indeed a romance comedy...cnt help laughing throughout the show...definitely thumbs up for this series...so u haven watch it...better do so! samsoon really did the fat gals proud...yeah!

yesh! finally there's a class chalet in late nov....been a million light years since i've been to a chalet...i'll definitely go as there sure to be loads of food and fun...another highlight in my list of stuff i wan to do after 'A' levels...am i planning to early arh? hahaz...

hmmm...had another busy and tiring week...but next week will be better cos got holiday...but again...i've GP PRELIMS...yikes...wish me luck man! i really need the luck tat i can get...BEST OF LUCK to all ppl taking prelims too...doom days are juz drawing near for me...have to activate my fat gal fortune...hehez... :)

tat's it at 2:21 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

exhausted!

TIRED is the best word to depict my feelings for this week...i noe it's a perfectly normal sign for a jc2 student like me to have...or else something muz be terribly wrong...i guess everyone has started mugging for the prelims and A levels...seriously...i'm always stunned when ppl ask me "how's ur revision going?"...cos i dunno how to ans them...i actually haven begin due to the workload of papers & questions to do for lectures and tutorials...so to console myself...this is also a kind of revision...a practical one...i think i've to squeeze myself dry to find time...ahhhh:P

i was on a "not so good" luck steak this week...probably i had tests, insufficient sleep, good appetite (not good for the body mah...), hideous pimples, moodiness and lots more stuff tat drove me crazy....izzit becos of the stress of examinations? probably so...but frankly speaking...i dun like to be stressed up...i wish i could treat exams seriously yet in a stress-free manner...but i guess it's quite difficult lahz...my sch's exam slogan says "Press on! NYJCians!"...ya...have to press on till the end of A levels...but for my case...i'm hanging and struggling on lahz...haiz...

i guess every sch will have a banner on the NO. of days to prelims and A levels...sooo horrifying to see the numbers getting lesser and lesser...my sch principal will keep reminding us...telling us tat we shld be juz only eating, sleeping and studying now...my mind immediately protested...i'll definitely be drowned in a sea of stress if i dun have a bit of entertainment...can somebody juz eat sleep study for 3 months??? i salute arh!

matilda is out for Singapore's idol! Not shocked but disappointed...as wat my bro says...this is the good-looking competition...not singing competition...where popularity is undenying the key to victory...i like matilda cos her vocals are very strong but i knew she doesnt have a huge fan base as the young ones in the competition...wat's more worrying is tat the bottom three were the supposedly "best three" in terms of performance and vocals...imagine either joakim, nurul or jasmine got the highest votes? oh my gosh...who'll be out next week?

manage to catch the first episode ''my lovely samsoon'' on channel u...i begin to rekindle my liking for korean dramas...it's hard to comment juz watching the firse episode...but i think shld be a not bad drama...the onli thing i find it weird is tat the cast is actually acting out the romance story of middle-aged (27/30) yrs old characters which is something i seldom come across...i always prefer those teeny dramas...but hope this drama can change my mind...hehez...

i actually didnt have much to blog abt cos my mind always blank out for no reason...hahahz...maybe i'll blog more next week...hope something good will happen will happen next week....although i'm skeptical abt it... :P

PRESS ON VANESSA! YEAH! STUDY AND SLACK HARD! tat's the spirit! (muz strike a balance mahz...)

tat's it at 2:15 AM

Friday, August 11, 2006

/*/*/*pre...post...national day...*/*/*/

my throat is killing me...my teeth is killing me...(i think got toothache) had been singing and eating for the past few days...soon blowing up into a big fat pig...had a sorta fun filled national day holiday...not on the actual day though...wahaha

8/8: went to sch for a ‘different’ national day celebration...besides the usual sing along sessions and parade...the whole sch went on a charity ‘raise’...which means doing flag day...the response was okay since most working ppl were too worried to be late than to bother us...our flag day cum national day stickers were very nice...very big...tat’s y there r ppl donating...it is a meaningful event cos our class ppl could get together...although only abt half the class were present...wat the...:P

9/8: Singapore’s birthday...all the glam & glitter (thanx to the fireworks...) guess wat i was doing when the ndp started...i was doing sickening ionic equilibria...sad sia...i wanna go see parade live lah but no ticket...(every year also like tat!)

10/8: went kbox to sing my heart out wif ong & hui...my throat wasn’t feeling tat good tat time...so i was off tune for most of the songs (cnt bear to hear...)and the price went up again but at least the food was better...with dessert lehz...wat’s the best part then? the company i had lahz... :)

i realized my mum is on a spending spree recently...esp on entertainment for the family...shld be a good thing cos got benefit me...hehez...she bought a karaoke system with 10000 songs! can u believe it? so tat i no need to visit kbox liaoz...but the song choices were quite old although u can find still songs by jay, fish, she...tat’s y my throat hurts lahz...and she also bought a new computer...somemore is Pentium D...YEAH...fast speed man...

updating a bit on ‘Goong’...the recent Korean drama tat i’m obessed wif...hahaz....i really like the second lead actor...Kim Jeong Hoon...i always have the habit liking second lead actors in my dramas...hahaz...cos they are mostly neglected and pitiful mahz...anyway...this drama is not bad...will rate 3.5/5...heard tat there’ll be a season 2...hahaz...cnt wait to see it...

wanna say a bit on the grooming workshop i attended...i did learn quite a few tips to become more presentable i guess...making me interested to get some working clothes...wahaha...oh yes...and i wore working clothes to sch...but my dressing was too formal cos i looked like CEO lohz...hahaha

end of holidays....

tat's it at 4:44 AM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

***)(***experience***)(***

i have big panda eyes...thanx to the days of insufficient sleep...maybe it's pre national day or my own laziness...the workload is piling up...i'm so behind the schedule...so as usual...the weekend is the best time for me to catch up...some work...some sleep...

let me see...i've been super busy this week...maybe because of one unacceptable reason for a JC2 student like me...supposedly using precious time to buck up on the studies...but yet...i was totally glued to my korean serial drama...yes...tat's my sin...i shld say now is not a right time to start any series...i jolly well noe tat i'll lose concentration and be addicted...but i'm vulnerable...ok...

u may be wondering wat i was watching...*drumroll* it's actually "Goong"...yes...i actually bought the whole serial...to pamper myself i guess...becos i very long time never buy any series already...then the packaging also look very nice,...so i bought it...and hor...i read the manga of this serial b4 (some vols onli...) dun ask me if izzit nice...i juz can say tat it's similar to the manga...but the sequence of events is different...the cast is good...esp the female lead and the second male lead( the golden haired...very shuai!!) the scenes were great...excellent mixture of the olden and modern times... there were funny & dull moments...but overall...it's ok...i haven finish watching actually...but this is how i feel now...wahaha...juz a bit disappointed in the chinese dubbed part...

u noe...it's the seven month of the lunar calendar...so i went to hungry ghost festival dinner( the one with auctions going on for charity...) this time i went to bedok area...the main reason for me going to this dinner despite the next day being a sch day...it's all becos of the food...but the food wasnt fantastic...it was the auction biddings tat were interesting...my dad bid a boat for my bro...hahaz...for $400...quite ex...but it's for the charity...however...the climax was when many ppl were bidding for statue of a horse ( medium sized)....the price actually went up to $6000++...despite the average final price of other items is approx $2000+...ppl were challenging each other, flaunting their wealth as it seemed...hahaz...i clapped my hands for their auctioning spirit...hehez...

next mon have to wear office wear to sch to attend grooming workshop...ahhh...never dressed like tat b4...and gals can put on makeup...wah...so troublesome...even there's a competition to choose our very own Mr Sleek & Miss Chic...hahaz...

next week is national day week...means holiday cum study & watch my serials...
Happy Birthday to Singapore!

to zj: get well soon...get ur voice back...i'm too deaf too hear...:P

tat's it at 9:58 PM

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